norwegian wood

"Do you think you weren't loved enough?"
She tilted her head and looked at me. Then she gave a sharp, little nod.
"Somewhere between "not enough' and "not at all'. I was always
hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get
my fill of it - to be fed so much love I couldn't take any more. Just
once. But they never gave that to me. Never, not once. If I tried to
cuddle up and beg for something, they'd just shove me away and yell
at me. "No! That costs too much!' It's all I ever heard. So I made up
my mind I was going to find someone who would love me uncon-
ditionally 365 days a year. I was still in primary school at the time, but
I made up my mind once and for all."
"Wow," I said. "And did your search pay off?"
"That's the hard part," said Midori. She watched the rising smoke for a
while, thinking. "I guess I've been waiting so long I'm looking for
perfection. That makes it tough."
"Waiting for the perfect love?"
"No, even I know better than that. I'm looking for selfishness. Perfect
selfishness. Like, say I tell you I want to eat strawberry shortbread.
And you stop everything you're doing and run out and buy it for me.
And you come back out of breath and get down on your knees and
hold this strawberry shortbread out to me. And I say I don't want it
any more and throw it out of the window. That's what I'm looking
for."
"I'm not sure that has anything to do with love," I said with some
amazement.
"It does," she said. "You just don't know it. There are times in a girl's
life when things like that are incredibly important."
"Things like throwing strawberry shortbread out of the window?"
"Exactly. And when I do it, I want the man to apologize to me. "Now I
see, Midori. What a fool I've been! I should have known that you
would lose your desire for strawberry shortbread. I have all the
intelligence and sensitivity of a piece of donkey shit. To make it up to
you, I'll go out and buy you something else. What would you like?
Chocolate mousse? Cheesecake?"'
"So then what?"
"So then I'd give him all the love he deserves for what he's done."
"Sounds crazy to me."
"Well, to me, that's what love is. Not that anyone can understand me,
though." Midori gave her head a little shake against my shoulder. "For
a certain kind of person, love begins from something tiny or silly.
From something like that or it doesn't begin at all."

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tell me, what is love?

Blanket

I read it the first time about 4 years ago. It was not mine though. Did not think i should have owned one. Fear of pains.

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First love, they said so.

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3 years later, I found it back in kino. Decided to own it. Pain?-feel like it.

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finally...
waited for 3 years
you are here with me


in tears...

never, never again...

the days were old.

- ( written in july 2007)

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Read it again last night.
Beautiful.

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It was the first graphic novel i read but the best one ever since.

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What we have come to believe in more than just a religion.

we all need someone to kiss us goodbye

Dear B,

Just for your information, I will walk to the moon and be back if it makes you smile. I will talk to you just so I can hear your voice again.

The other day, I heard that it was supposed to be the end of the world this year(!) This made me think to myself that I don't want to die without you next to me, but the worst thing is, what if we both survived but we were still so far apart and didn't know if the other was alive?

I guess I'd better walk to the moon fast.

Wave and smile,
Wave and smile,
A

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This has just made me cry, again.

My Learning Process

He is handsome. He is cool. He is awesome. He taught me simple yet meaningful things in life and the life-of-a-designer. They are interesting, funny, yet they are not a joke and you gotta think about it at the end of the day.
I love Stefan Sagmeister. ^^



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Helping other people helps me.

Having guts always works out for me.

Thinking life will be better in the future is stupid. I have to live now.

Starting a charity is surprisingly easy.

Being not truthful works against me.

Everything I do always comes back to me.

Assuming is stifling.

Drugs feel great in the beginning and become a drag later on.

Over time I get used to everything and start taking for granted.

Money does not make me happy.

Travelling alone is helpful for a new perspective in life.

Keeping a diary supports personal development.

Trying to look good limits my life.

Material luxuries are best enjoyed in small doses.

Worrying solves nothing.

Complaining is silly. Either act or forget.

Actually doing the things I set out to do increases my overall level of satisfaction.

Everybody thinks they are right.

Low expectations are a good strategy.

Whatever I want to explore professionally, its best to try it out for myself first.

Everybody who is honest is interesting.


-Stefan
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A Woman Young and Old

If I make the lashes dark
And the eyes more bright
And the lips more scarlet,
Or ask if all be right
From mirror to mirror
No vanity's displayed:
I'm looking for the face I had
Before the world was made.
-William Butler Yeats

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Nature is not always kind, and society now is even less so.
If one's pursuit of happiness is a desire for a better outlook-
and so change a destiny.
i think even plastic surgery is nothing wrong.
isn't it natural to wish for social's acceptance?
we are all tied to some.